I am singing my blues…

For the past 2 days, I’ve been sad. It didn’t make want to blog or go to my internship or do anything. I also felt extremely tired. I don’t know why I just suddenly became miserable, irritable and annoying. I suffered a mild case of depression 2 years ago. It lasted over 4 months. I am spiritual and I think I was being protected by some sort of divine energy that made me snap out of it. I sought help and I got better. Ever since then I have to fight to keep the funk away. It is always there at the edges. Sometimes it makes me not care about anything.  I know and have seen people who suffer from depression that has lasted years. I just don’t want to suffer the same fate. I am telling you even the milder bout of depression is scary. It is really hard to describe. You might seem normal from outside but you don’t really feel right inside. Anyway, I am out of the funk for now. I’ll try to post more regularly.

Here enjoy the Korean group Big bang’s song Blue. It is a pretty good song and I got my title from it. Also, stay positive people and never give up. Fighting!


I am a delusional fan

Watch the video. It is bad, isn’t it? The song is horrid, the dance is cheesy. They are the Korean equivalent to One Direction although Jongdae is a great singer.

Jongdae (Chen)

Yet, I cannot stop liking them. These boys, they are such hard workers and they have creepy stalkerish teen fangirls who harass them. I just feel bad for them. Also, they are forced to do this song by their entertainment company. See, it is easy to make excuses. Their album is dropping on June 3. I will probably end up buying it. The rest of the songs are so much better especially Heart Attack. I have bad taste in music, right? Still can not stop liking them. Delusional Fan is me.